So lately I’ve
been feeling like my life is passing me by and nothing exciting is happening. I’ve
also been really down for some reason. I’m working on not obsessing over
analyzing people’s motives and intentions and instead working on myself more. There
are some things I’ve yet to heal from and it needs to happen. I’ve realized
that instead of working on the broken relationships in my life, I first have to
work on my relationship with God. The hurts in my life have left me a bit
skeptical of people and that’s why I’ve been driving myself crazy wondering why
the act the way they act and what the motives are behind those actions. And as
a result, all I’ve been left with is confusion and no answers. I realized that it’s
not my job to figure out why people do what they do and that me doing that is
pointless and time consuming, not to mention unproductive. So here I am, learning
to trust and depend on God! And believe me, it’s not easy. My lack of trust in
my physical life has crossed over into my spiritual life and that needs to
change. I’m so grateful that God doesn’t love the way humans do and he
continues to be patient and merciful with me. My therapist gave me the
challenge to stop trying to analyze people’s motives, but to instead go all out
for Jesus and see what God does. So instead of trying to be the perfect daughter,
I’m going to pray for my parents and work on all the pain and resentment I actually
have against them with God. Instead of wondering why a guy says one thing and
does another, I’m going to stop initiating plans, work on myself, and give my love
life over to God. Instead of trying to impress the worship team and prove
myself worthy of being on the worship team, I’m going to work on why I joined
in the first place: to Praise God with my voice. And instead of analyzing why
certain people decide to be my friend when it’s convenient to them, I’m going
to let things run their course meaning no more chasing people and focus on the
amazing friends I do have. So there, that’s my challenge! It’s a tough one but I’m
quite curious and excited to see how God works and transforms me in the
process.
---> Challenge Accepted God, Now let’s do
this right!!
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