Jesus says we should all bear our own cross in order to follow him, also we should deny ourselves to follow him. He has also said in scripture that he didn't come to bring peace, but to divide.
I live these things with my family. They're Jehovah's witnesses & do NOT like or tolerate that I am a Christian now & no longer a part of their religion. They always use many different tactics to "try" to persuade me to come back to the JWs, but they always fail. They promise me a better life, without any bills, free rent, free car, etc etc. They've threatened to stay away from me or stop talking to me & then after a few days they talk to me again. Today was bad! It was pretty random too. My parent's wanted to take my brother out for dinner & it was obvious I wasn't invited. My mom told me where they were going & she told me & then I was invited. I told my dad up front that I didn't want to talk about religious stuff. Then I heard my father pull here aside & ask why did she tell me. He Did NOT want me going so I told my mom I wasn't going. My father then comes after & says : we are going to talk about spiritual things & you're gonna take it because you are the first one who needs to hear it. I told him I wasn't going & so he proceeded to talk about religion anyway, after I had clearly told him I didn't want to. The next hour or so was all him rambling on about why my faith is wrong & why I'm this & that! He even compared me to Satan & Judas (the man who betrayed Jesus). Really? Talk about a low blow! Its devastating to hear these things from your own family members. My mom started adding on saying they were going to move to be away from me. All this because I'm a Christian! My father then continued to talk & then ask me to decide if I was going to continue in this "false religion" & if I was, he wasn't going to associate himself with me anymore, because he felt he was disobeying God by being around me. I grabbed all my stuff & just left, no one said a word! Not even to say goodbye! Truth is I was very overwhelmed when I left & I caught myself driving reckless so I pulled over at a near park & cried my eyes out. I let it all go! They broke my heart honestly & I hope its another phase that passes after a few days. I honestly feel as if I have no family , as if they moved on from me ever since I became a Christian. I don't feel like the daughter or sister! I feel like I'm just some random person they knew but then so easily forgot. All I can do now is take it day by day & pray that God softens they're hearts!
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